I thought to myself: this was it! This was the thing I had been waiting for. This was what I had been wanting to have. Dreams started to pour in. Hopes started to become real. Wishes started to become promising. Pessimism started to make a U-turn into optimism.

And suddenly, I saw the future. The future that I had never seen before. The bright future that made up harmony, serenity, happiness, loyalty, security, and sense of belonging. The future of me and you. The future of us.

We took the risk. Making commitments. Promises. Believing that this was going to work out. Somehow. Despite the distance. Despite of everything. We were going to break them. Together.

But it turned out that it did not flow as we I wanted to. We were overwhelmed by our own expectations. Distance had made us apart. But there was a huge wall that was unbreakable and made us even more apart. The wall that I could not even reach. The wall that could only be broken by you. My dear, have you tried to break it?

And it was me who shattered everything. I thought that time would guide me. I thought that time would show me how to break this wall. But I had been impatience. Until when should I keep on waiting the uncertainties? Until when should I keep on wondering? What if it did not work out after days, weeks, and years of waiting? What if the wall refused to be broken?

I do not want to stay here anymore. And I want to move on. I want to look up and start to fly. Leaving all those behind. I want to start a new chapter of life. I want to find happiness.

Can I say one more thing to you? You deserve someone better than me. Someone who can understand you. Most importantly, someone who knows how to break that wall. You’ll find her. I’m sure of it.

Let’s fly higher. And freely.

* Taken in the Old Town Square in Prague, Czech Republic. A day before my 24th birthday.